omg...IT REALLY IS KARMA

It appears that at least a major part of our true essence for as long as we continue to deny it and and remain unaware of it is our karma.   Our karma is more omnipotent and omnipresent than our memories, body, personality and illusion of time.  It is prior and controlling.  It typically remains in control for many lifetimes.  However, it has a mass like matter and like matter it can disintegrate instantly on a nuclear level of activity.  If you become conscious to and surrender to its existence it will automatically disintegrate.  Karma exists in proportion to the energy which your soul has emitted over lifetimes.  The highest energy is unconditional love.  The lowest energy is something like hatred and cruelty.  We all have emitted all of the energies along the spectrum.  We have all played an infinite number of roles over and over, each one emitting different energies at different times.  Each place and time is just another pixel in our trip through the eras.  Our karma is the totality of these energies.  We think that karma is mysterious, but it is with us all day everyday, in full view, pulling the strings of our puppets without our awareness.  We gain glimpses of it as background noise, parts of us which we deny or brush under the rug.  But when seen as a whole for what they are, these aspects of ourselves tell a story of what our karma is.  This "background noise" and inconvienet truth is our karma revealing itself.  We are not what we hope to be or could be.  We are our karma and it is as unchangeable as we are unconscious.  Put your jealousy, hatred, anger, shame, fear, and guilt together as a whole puzzle and witness who you really are.  You will finally see your real power and essence as your karma shifts in the light of awareness.